I Can't

So, today my grandmother was upset with me because I didn't go to school. i tried telling her about how much bullshit life just is and how I couldn't deal with it but she said I still need to go to school, especially since I already missed two days in a row. What she didn't understand though was that it took all the strength I had just to get out of bed and walk 10 feet to tell her why I wasn't getting up. All I wanted to do this morning was curl up and cry. To be honest, I've no idea why I felt this way. I just did. I felt awful nearly all day. Now I'm somewhat okay, but school got out three hours ago, so... Yeah, that sucks. Anyway, I'm going to use this time to catch up on some work, both related and unrelated to school. This morning and most of today was just a big ball of "I Can't". I know I "sound like a white girl" and yeah, I'm a white boy, but whatever. That's really how I was able to describe my feelings. Sigh. Anyway, I'll see y'all later.