My Life Sucks. I've No Money for College, I want to teach Sex Ed.

Okay, so, I'm supposed to be typing up copies of a script for theatre so that my partners can have their lines in their hands instead of on flash cards or on their phones, and I was watching the new season of Switched at Birth on Netflix, but I kind of need to vent.

Well, first off, I'm changing my name to Sebastian Sean, but that's another story.

So, I've never had a college fund. Ever. I've only ever had one job. My high school career... Well, my GPA has always been at least okay, but my grades turn to shit every once in a while. First semester junior year, I gave up all hopes of going to college. Until my English teacher handed me a bunch of websites that offered scholarships. Then I wanted to do military and was thinking that I would be okay for college. Now... I'm not doing military (wouldn't be legally allowed to, anyway) and I've nearly given up on college. Again. I've no money! And it's way too expensive. Financially, my best hope is Stanford. But they're extremely exclusive. UCR has great LGBT+ community programs and gender incluisve housing and diversity and a taiko group... But I wouldn't be let in with how they calculate their GPA. My best bet is community college then transfer. But none of the community colleges in my area offer Sexuality/Gender Studies. None of them. Like what the fuck?

I've decided today that I want to be a sexuality educator. Sexuality education in America is complete shit, even in places like California where it's "comprehensive". I want to offer kids a chance at understanding the fluidity of the sexuality spectrum with a fully comprehensive, all inclusive, sex positive education. I want them to know it's okay to be gay or trans or sexual or asexual. I want them to know when a relationship is abusive, even if they're not physically being lashed at. I want them to know the proper names for their genitals, how their bodies work. I want them to understand power dynamics, what consent is and what it isn't. I want them to learn of the world without having their parents breathing down their necks or having to seek their permission for knowledge.

But if I'm to achieve this... Course wise, my best bet is Stanford. But I really want to go to UCR. But I need to go to community college if I hope to get in anywhere soon. So if I go down the route of community college... I would need to take Family Studies/Child Development, Sociology, Psychology, Biology, Anatomy, maybe even Anthropology, and who knows what else. But that could take years and I don't even have money to get a car; how am I supposed to get an education? And don't forget that my true passion is Art and I would be taking all sorts of Art classes, too.

I'm so young and yet I can just feel my life wasting away...

Non Hetero Sexual Orientations

Did this Monday, which is NonHetero Sexual Orientation Acceptance Day